Wanted: Prayers

Man do I need prayers. I'm sitting at my desk at work right now holding in my tears because I am in so much pain. I am very surprised that my brain is even allowing me to think this through and type it.

So it has been confirmed that I do have Lyme Disease and that my immune system is very low. I do not remember ever having a tick bite, but I've been having symptoms for about 5 years and they just continue to progress. My memory and physical strength continues to get worse by the day. At times I have forgotten how to spell my name, what my address is, and what my birthdate is, among many other things. I almost always have to be holding onto something or someone to be able to stand. I honestly think my body is stronger than I am even aware of, because I think anyone else in my position would be in a wheelchair or bed ridden right now or maybe even dead. I wish I could afford to be able to rest and get my body where it should be, but I just have to fight through it. Luckily I have a desk job, so I don't have to stand too much, but it is still difficult for me to sit at my desk and it is obviously difficult when I can't remember a thing and I'm also having speech difficulty.

It's funny because I've been aware of these progressing symptoms for over 5 years now and I think everyone had got it into their minds that I was just a complainer and that I'm weak because all my tests always came back negative. So it's gratifying for me now to be able to prove that I'm not crazy.

I've been doing a lot of research on Lyme Disease and here are some things that I've learned... I will always have it. I'll never get rid of it. Treatment can possibly make my symptoms not as bad at times, but I'll always have symptoms. I can pass it onto my children through child birth. That makes me sad, but at least I'll know to keep an eye out for the symptoms. You can die from Lyme Disease because it starts to attack your organs and eventually can shut them down and all of my organs are being attacked. There is nothing proven that absolutely helps. You just have to try multiple things. I'm going to start by trying antibiotics, which is scary for me because it's not going to have fun side affects to either. We'll be switching the types so that my body doesn't get used to one type. Another form of treatment I've been looking into is a hyperbaric chamber. You get put into this coffin like chamber that gets filled with 100% oxygen and it is just awesome for your cells and for the over-all health of your body. I'm also taking lots of natural supplements right now.

I applied for a $10,000 grant for Lyme patients who can't afford treatment, so hopefully I can get that because I have a $5,000 deductible on my health insurance and even after that I'm not covered at 100%. So please be praying for Ryan and I to be blessed with that grant and with just any funds for me to try to get better before it keeps progressing.

Please be praying for healing of course too. My major symptoms right now are memory loss, speech difficulty, major muscle weakness, shaking, brain fogs, blurry vision, fainting, etc.

I know God has a plan for all of this and I want Him to have glory in whatever happens!