Wow! These past few weeks have just been a whirlwind! So many blessings and trials, but mostly blessings from what I can remember. I've never been good at remembering bad things in the first place, which I guess is a blessing too. Ahaha. I've been spending a lot more time with God lately, which I believe goes hand in hand with all of the great blessings surrounding me. I would still love to spend
much more time with God, and maybe now that my life is getting a little more peaceful, I'll be able to focus on Him even more. I said in my last post that Ryan and I were going to look at our first apartment together. It was a beautiful apartment, but neither Ryan nor I felt a peace about moving in there. But a few days later, we toured our second apartment, and it was the absolute perfect fit for us! We filled out our applications as soon as we finished touring it and dropped off our down payment the next day trusting that God would provide me with a more steady job by then, so that we could afford it. A few days later, we got accepted to move in, and went in to sign the lease. It was SO exciting to finally know where we will starting our new lives together, but it was also a huge step of faith, because my job has not been giving me steady hours lately at all. I was applying everywhere to find a steady, full time, good paying, job so that we could afford this place. I would get a few phone calls back here and there, but not for the hours I wanted or the shifts I wanted. I even interviewed at a nursing home and they told me they were going to give me the job, then a few days later, they sent me an email saying I didn't get the job. Although I knew I wouldn't LOVE working there, I NEEDED a steady job to be able to move into this apartment, so I called them, I emailed them, and nothing. They never answered me at all. I was so confused and so upset because I KNEW I was more the qualified for this job and they told me that, and then they took the job back from me days later. But it was all part of God's plan. I knew it was even in those tough moments, but it didn't make it much easier to wait and wait and wait on the job that God wanted me to have to come along. One day after getting a few phone calls from jobs that were not offering the right things I wanted, I went onto craigslist.com looking for jobs. I had no idea why I was doing that. I thought it was weird, but I just felt like I needed to. Like it was the last place I should look for jobs at. I applied for quite a few jobs on craigslist.com, but the one that stuck out to me was to be a Chiropractic Assistant for a Chiropractor near by. I sent him my resume and a few hours later, he called. He asked me to come in the next day for an interview. I was SO excited! I went in for the interview and it was pretty short and it was mostly him telling me about the position. I didn't get to talk much at all. A few days later I sent him a thank you email for interviewing me and reminding him of my qualities that would make me perfect for the job. A couple hours later, he called to invite me for a second interview. The second interview went great, until he handed me a pop quiz on my math skills! I despise math. I hate it so much. I was shaking like an earthquake! My heart was pounding like crazy. My brain just couldn't even function. I was not expecting that AT ALL. I was just like "Great, I'm not getting this job". I couldn't even remember how to multiply and divide by hand. It was pathetic how nervous I was. I explained my nervousness and hatred for math to the Chiropractor, and he explained to me how important math is. "I'm screwed" is all I was thinking. But he continued with the interview, even though I couldn't even finish have the worksheet. He asked me a bunch of scenario questions and really just trying to get a feel of how I would react in different situations in the office and such. Well, I
ROCKED that part, but the math still had me worried. So I left once again without an answer. The next day I sent him another thank you email and he called me back again for a
THIRD interview. I was shaking like crazy when he called and I still was not confident, even though this was my third interview. I brushed up on my math the night before with Ryan and I just prayed that God's will would be done. I wanted this job SO badly, but I did not want it if it was not God's will for me. So I went in yesterday for my third interview, and I
NAILED it. He had me interact with two of his patients and I walked around with him and asked him questions and helped him out and by the end of the "work interview", he asked me when I could start. I was baffled! I still am! I can hardly believe that God blessed me with such a perfect job for me. Perfect hours, great pay, health insurance, awesome boss, and in a field that I love! Health! And not geriatric health! lol. I couldn't be more excited for this job! It was God's plan all along for that nursing home to deny me and for all of those jobs to not fit my schedule and needs. He had a job better than all of those waiting for me. I just had to be patient and seek His will. Well now that I blabbed about that for way too long, another exciting thing...
MY BABY BROTHER WAS BORN!!! My brother,
Wesley James Benedict, was born on Valentines Day, February 14th, at
2:21 pm. He was
7 lbs 9 ounces and
19 3/4 inches.
He beat me and is now my mom's smallest baby. He is the most precious little boy you have ever seen! Me, my sister, Holly, my grandma, my aunt, Marla, and my step dad, James, were all there for the birth and it was incredible! I was there for the birth of my precious brother, William, and let me tell you... it wasn't any less emotional the second time. The miracle of birth is so amazing beyond words! I don't know how you could see it and not believe in our awesome and mighty and loving God that makes it all possible! It's breath taking! I prayed that Wesley would be a very content and easy baby for my mom, since this is her fifth child that's getting thrown into this crazy world of ours, and he is exactly that! He is such a huge blessing and joy in our lives and I just cannot kiss him enough!
He is so stinkin cute! Anyways... I think that's all I had to update about. The wedding plans are going fine. We got our taxes done right away, so that we could use that money asap. It's looking like we are not going to be able to afford a honeymoon, which is really disappointing, but in the end, it doesn't matter. We're getting married! This is all about creating a wonderful marriage. Not having a fancy party and going on a sweet vacation, even though that would be nice. We're thankful that we found an awesome apartment, and we are saving our money for that. I'm losing weight slowly. I've almost lost 10 pounds, but I need to stick to eating healthy and I need to stop cheating. And I still have over 15 more pounds to lose to get to my goal weight. My birthday is this Monday. The big two ohhhhhh. lol. I will finally no longer be a teenager. So that's exciting! Ryan and I got really good seats for cheap to a Bucks game that day, so that should be really fun! I am just so thankful for everything that God is doing in my life! He is good
ALL THE TIME. Even if He didn't do all these things for me, He would still be good! I will praise Him for the rest of my life, no matter what the circumstances are, because he is more than worthy of it and more!
Oh yeah, mine and Ryan's one year anniversary was last month too... =)
God Bless.<3
PS- I'm moving into our apartment in 49 days.
We're getting married in 84 days. =D
PSPS- I forgot to say why I made my title of this "If You Could See Like Me..." Ryan and I have been studying music a lot lately on our own. One band we have been listening to is a Christian band called Oh, Sleeper. Their album Son of The Morning is sooo cool. It's like a conversation between God and Satan. It's so powerful and neat and the song, Son of The Morning is mostly Satan talking, but God says "If you could see like me you'd see, you haven't won anything. If you could see like me you'd see, it's by my grace that you're breathing." It's such an awesome album! And we have also been researching the power of listening to non-Christian music, and it is insane! We've read that music artist have witches and warlocks and such cast spells on the equipment that they use to make their music, so that when you play their music, it releases demons. I'm not sure how much truth there is in that, I believe a lot, but I KNOW that it DOES affect you when you listen to non-Christian music, whether you think it does or not. There are things going on in the spiritual world that we don't see. Our God is powerful, but you shouldn't open yourself to those evil things. That is all. =)
-I apologize that this blog was written very poorly and is all over the place.
